chopping block

so like some time ago now i got inspired and cut my own locks off. something i never even did as a five year old...NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT. but then i did. the bottom 4 inches of hair just wasnt worth the fucking fuss anymore. so i mulled it over...toiled with the idea... weighed my options.
"ya. anything would look better than this fucking mop that currently grew out of my head."

best decision i ever made.
and, maaaaybe one of the most daring and fun things ive ever done (that says a whole fucking lot about me... or lack there of?)

anyways im thinking about going even a bit shorter...super curl bob while in the land of sea and beaches and sunshine and yoga ...that is bali, indonesia.


what say you?!

away from love

the way one knows it is time to embark on the next leg of thy journey, is an all encompassing feeling of emptiness in thy present moment. thats like some super oxymoron or juxtapositional something or other...all encompassing emptiness. right? nvm
my glass is empty. i have no words worth speaking, no real thoughts worth sharing other than petty egotistical bullshit. Im this close to becoming an apathetic drunk again. and im just generally annoyed with my personal life. work is great for the most part because i can take my mind away from the balls that is my "life". i need new stimuli for le brain and soul. wooowweeee time to flip my world upside dowwwn.

CURLS CURLS CURLS

some days you just have the best hair day. so much so that it calls for a self photoshoot with your macbook. #guiltyasfuck

TRUTH

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GtPK0gRdFgI

just a little treat for you all... ALEX EBERT...aka Edward Sharpe...aka my love

day 38

I have been re-reading Meditations from the Mat by Rolf Gates and Katrina Kenison, "...365 meditations...offer[ing] a way to integrate the mindfulness that yoga teaches into everyday life." Throughout these meditations the aspiring yogi learns The 8 Limb Path of Yoga. I've been back and forth in this book for the past year. I had read the better part of the mediations, but sometime ago I decided to start fresh at day 1, sometime in December. Today I am on day 38 and learning my lessons of the yama, Brahmacharya (you can see clearly its not a daily thing). But, no matter what day it may be, I seem to always read something very 'of the moment' and truly inspiring.

This specific yama is synonymous with moderation and continence. Hand in hand with deliverance, brahmacharya is the 'sit back' attitude and our opportunity to ride peacefully on the waves of truth. When we have balance at our core, we begin to see balance in every aspect of life. It in fact becomes our only way of seeing, we base our thoughts, our words, and our actions in temperance. We begin to realize that this is the way of the heart;  brahmacharya, moderation, temperence, balance...however it may be said, is the foundation of the soul.

"When the practioner is firmly established in continence, knowledge, vigor, valor, and energy flow to him."
- Yoga Sutras

Deliverance

Daily Hexagram

40: Deliverance

General Meaning:

After a thunderstorm, or any period of extreme tension, a period of new clarity and fresh opportunity follows. The storm has the effect of clearing the air and suddenly reducing atmospheric tension. Deliverance is at hand. In the wake of a storm on land, deliverance appears in the form of new color and life, which bursts forth in all the fields and flowers. In the wake of a storm at sea, deliverance takes the form of land itself.


In the field of human relations, the rain of forgiveness washes the human landscape clean after a period of conflict and enmity. Great clarity of purpose and renewed vigor can follow the healing of old wounds. But care must be taken not to re-open such wounds by moving too quickly. In the same way, it is important to return to normalcy before moving ahead with new plans after periods of stress.

'Deliverance' 

Following the resolution of a difficult situation, your first priority, should be to return to normal conditions as quickly as possible. Breathe a sigh of relief, but don't relax completely. It would be a mistake to re-awaken the sleeping dogs of the immediate past before the new situation has crystallized. Look ahead. Attend to any residual matters that need resolution, and do so as quickly as possible. Make a clean sweep of the past, move deliberately and the future will bring good fortune.


 -tarot.com

SO like I was saying with the lemons...the shit show that life dealt me (or I dealt myself?) has passed and is settling. There is a glimpse of the magic that is about to unfold (not that its not all magic... but you get where I am going). We experience pain and suffering only to be fully capable of knowing the experience of joy and love. ALL EXPERIENCE IS GROWTH and each are stepping stones to our HIGHEST FORM OF SELF.

Deliverance is the period where we can really sit back and observe; we must sit patiently and contented in each moment, blissfully aware of the power we hold within. Take the back seat and commend yourself for your hard work, the work that you do everyday. Sit in your faith and wait patiently for your lemonade... its coming.

MY HERO

"There is a wisdom within us that is more powerful than our depair. There is a movement toward health that our intellect can merely glimpse, once in a while. It is the same impulse that causes plants to face the sun, animals to take care of their young...This life force has provided opportunity...All we need to do is cultivate an open heart, to express our gratitude...and to celebrate the return of our hero."

-Rolf Gates, Meditations from the Mat